Yes! Why certain relationships didn't work out? Why did I always think it was me that made it not work out? Why do people do that? Why was I the one that had to go through all of this?
You know that saying that, "God removes people from your life because He heard conversations that you didn't hear." Well, He was protecting me! Yes, he was! I could not see it at the time, because I was so focused on what wasn't working. God knows exactly what you need and he only works things out for you in His timing. Sometimes when you feel like there is no hope, miracles happen! Yes, they do! But, here is the thing, you are only focusing on the suffering, the sorrow, the sadness, the pain, the hurt, the agony, or even the miserable heartache. I feel like we allow it, so we need to determine for ourselves, "Is this worth it?" I was naive and insecure about so many things at a young age. This was one of the many reasons why I was a good target for these types of situations. I wanted to change all of this! It became my mantra and the desire to become something that I could work on to this day. God knew what I wanted out of life and He knew that I wanted to grow my 'Personal Development'. And with this, I needed to be with someone that was strong and willing to accept me for myself. This person needed to be someone that could possibly allow us to grow together as a Powerful Couple! This is why all of my past relationships never worked out. He knew what my purpose was! Having gone through all of this, I will be able to use this to help others. He is using my experiences whether good or bad to help others. I am His and He will be working through Me!
Some of the things such as the details, the why's, the what if's, and the reasons were are things that I needed to stop the vicious cycle of trying to understand why certain relationships did not work. I needed to start with myself in separating myself, focusing on keeping myself busy with productive growth, prayers, and a strong support system. In order to get the results that I wanted, I had to change the things I was doing and create better relationships with the people that I want in my life. Transformation is a big part of my life and it can work for you too. I leaned towards my church for all of this. Foundations had to be reset and forgiveness of myself needed to be done including the ones that weren't sorry. It was a relief for myself and to be allievated of the burdens that were there.
Let me tell you something. Look in the mirror and tell me, "I am worth it!" Your family, your friends, your co-workers, your boss, and even strangers that grow to know you will be rooting for you!
Let them go! Forgive yourself! No one is perfect and we all make mistakes, whose counting them anyway! Create the life you want for yourself and quit trying to figure everything out! It isn't for you to understand the details.
I hope this helps you!
Love Shell
